I Want To..

I want to.. see emem, i want to.. be next to her, i want to.. hold her, i want to.. put my arms around her, and most of all i want to.. catch her when she falls.

been a while since the both of us last spoken to each other or seen each other. and i dont think i can take it anymore. i just, wanna talk to her, i don't care if i only talk to her for 1 second, i just want to hear her voice or watch how her fingers quickly move across the keyboard of a computer and seeing each word she types. it means everything. it should keep my sense to know that she is alright, and i hope she is having fun.

I guess ill do my best to have fun. i do have another drink up for a good friends birthday tomorrow, and its combined with the new years party. hoping to get fully smashed up! and just simply have a good time with all my friends that shall be there. Its 4 am, i think i should got off now.

--Dopey.Candy--

Missing Her Bigtime.

its been a few days since my baby and i have talked, and im missing her bigtime. the worse thing is, before she left sydney, we had a couple of arguments, which is just gay ><, we shouldn't have had arguments, that time, especially if she was leaving for a few days, i shouldve made her smile more, instead of getting her to leave with those arguments following her.

but i guess she comes back on our first month, we'll miss out on new years togther, but we'll have our first month anniversary to catch up on things, and i hope everything will be left behind, the arguments, the conflict, and just stay happy together, and tell each other stories on what we have done on when we didn't see each other.

Cheer up and dry your damp eyes, tell me when it rains
and i'll blend up that rainbow above you, and shoot it through your veins
cause your heart hs a lack of colour, and we should've known
That we'd grow up sooner or later cause we wasted all our free time alone..

Hope too see you soon baby!
loveloveloveloveyou!<3<3

--Dopey.Candy--

Mistakes & Regrets..

Aiya fella's, well i guess this is the perfect time, 2 am in the morning to
say all my mistakes, regrets and misguidances throughout the whole year of 2009
theres been lots of ups and downs, lots of funfun, and the sad-times, but i guess
it all equals each other up. Too bad this post is about all the bad things thats happened to me and what i've done bad.

Mistakes

-Starting to smoke, too bad i've stopped now.

-Breaking a few hearts.

-Trying to start a few fights.

-Spilling out personal information.

-Taxing, when not needed

-Continuing taxing still.

-Trying to use love as an excuse for everything.

-Putting everything on a person who doesn't deserve any of this.

-Leading some people on.

-Peer Pressuring a few certain people to do bad things.

Regrets

-Drifting away from a couple of good friends.

-Ditching a few friends.

-Stopping Breakdancing for the time being.

-Not keeping promises.

-Making private things public.

-Going crazy at people, who do not deserve it.

-Being stubborn at the most stupidest times.

-Trying to kill a certain person.

-Saying im moving on to a certain person when i haven't technically moved on

-Making A. Le-Huynh Cry.

-Making a few certain people cry.

-Choosing friends over other friends.

& lots more but i just cannot bear to think so bad of myself. due to every single bad thing i have done. i will hate myself more and more to just read this post out of my whole blog. I simply just cannot, take it. But i guess im strong, and i know i can surpass all this.

Due to the problem i have now, i just dont think i can do it. But i shall put it on another post very soon.

--Dopey.Candy--

Every single moment, Tattooed, and Scarred onto my Heart.

Well i guess this year, must be the most memorable and unforgettable out of
all my years. lots of drama, ups and downs but i guess, it drives my life into uncovering
mysteries into truths.

Well shall i begin with the start of the year.
what a beginning. thought i would have an awesome year in cumberland high, but instead
got into a fight with some assface named Peter something something ( dont really fucking care about his last name), i guess i pretty much knocked the kid out cold. ;D just awesome. suspended for 4 weeks, came back, 1 week after, got into another fight but this time, his younger brother. which is a shit talking motherfuckaaaa!. dont really care. they'll get what's coming to them soon. after all that bullshit. thats scarr one, what drama.
oh wells i guess, that was just a blessing.

while on the break. i've been talking to 2 awesome homo girls!, krystal & janet!. 2 cool homos. we would usually talk on the phone every now and then. but there was one time that was so funny. talking about the song "jeremy thurber - i love you but", and then out of no where, janet goes " huh wah, i love your butt?"
ahahah such a crackup, krystal and I couldn't stop laughing at her for like 5-10 minutes. shes the best i guess ;D.

school again.Aiyaaaaaa, new school, Fairvale high!, awesome school, felt very awkward though, awesome moments in this school. didn't really know anyone, well i only knew 3 people i would say.
met the most awesomest friends in here. friends that would stay with ya through out your whole life.
ahhh, awesome reminiscing i guess. i could name them all in tops but i guess ill just say my top 13
i would say are the bestest!.
1.James Cameron.
2.Tram Tran.
3.Danny Wang.
4.Jeremy Weatherby.
5.Jenny Nguy.
6.Christopher Ortiz.
7.Anna Le-Huynh.
8.Grace Guerrero
9.Renny Bolanos
10.Jenny Ly.
11.Cathey Nguyen
12.Justin Le
13.Christopher Leiker
Too many to name but yeah.
continuing on. saw a few people along the way. but there was just one girl that took me. which is Trammy!. good times with her, memorable and unforgettable moments but i guess, time passes on. we shall have each others backs always, and support each other all the way. through thick & thin. hoping nothing changes between the both of us. anywhoo, lets continue.

Drink ups! my god, memorable drink ups! they are just so fun, so many funny things that has happened
in all the drink ups, too many too name, but i guess i can just say they were the best!.

sleep overs!. my god, awesome sleep overs, i remember one at James house, didnt actually even sleep
that night :L, so much fun, just simply bumming around, doing whatever what was good enough
to satisfy our laughter. ahahahhaalol. good times james good times.

the downs and the sadness this year, my god, i felt that i was going to have deja vu like last year.
luckily i didn't, hated my emoness !, that is something i want to forget, to bad its stuck with me forever
i guess, its my own fault, but good experience i guess, good to experience things you haven't been through
so it shows you that you don't want to be in any position that is shit, every again.

but now, i am with my Baby.Emilyn. haven't been together in a while, but we have known each other
for quite sometime now, around 3 years. funfun i guess. we shall stick by through anything
together, and just hope we last. never want to be in a heartbreaking situation ever, well i guess
just not to soon. it will kill me bigtime.

there are more memorable moments but i guess, i shall reminisce about them later, got too much in my mind
at the moment.
and too all my friends
thank you!, thank you for a great year, thank you for everything i guess.
hope our futures will collide with each other in a good way, and we shall all make our futures better. hopefully
because
"LIFE IS ABOUT FALLING, LIVING IS ABOUT GETTING BACK UP"

Love Ya All.
Every single moment i spend with all of you, they are tattooed, and implanted onto my heart. 

--Dopey.Candy--

Silence, Is so loud, yet understanding.

Emem and i are official, well official 5 days ago, on my formal :)
such a memorable moment, and also coincidental.
Well we were official, after the king and queen were announced, and all the couples
joined along to dance. how was it coincidental? well when i asked her, i looked around, and saw
we were in the middle of the dance floor, on the small circle. I was surprised yet so happy.

well what does this title mean? it means, that even though we are silent sometimes when we are
together, it says so much. It means that even though we aint talking for a few seconds, we just
need eye contact to make the words. quite amusing. Yet we understand each other, and what we are
going to say to each other, before we even get the chance to say it.

as i flashed back onto my old songs, which are just all meaningful, and which i have a connection to
for each of em, i stumbled upon this particular song. "Ronan Keating - When You Say Nothing At All"
very meaningful words. as it shows

"The smile on your face, Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth, In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me, Whenever I fall
You say it best ,When you say
Nothing at all"

just loving this song forever. <3

--Dopey.Candy--

Defeating this, breaking out, and now where do i go.?

So where do i go now, when year 10 is finished, i won't be seeing a couple of friends, i guess
only focusing on "whats best" for my future. which is pretty much study, STUDY , SSTTUUDDYY!
oh wells, should be "funfun". nah not really i guess, but oh wells, gotta do whats best for now.

besides, i have Emilynn with me, loads funfun, ;D, and i guess formal is coming up in a few hours
thats gonna be a blast, and it should show on how things are going to be in the future, watching
slide shows and more. should show some true colors of everyone, as i can see
thats happening at the end of the year, in school, on how every acts. i pay attention to the
most little-est things that tend to show how everyone.

i guess thats how i am.


--Dopey.Candy--