5 Questions...

releasing all my emotions by this.. i can't have every single one of them left in me. i cannot allow
myself to go insane about this, i must not hurt anyone with my emotions of this. i must do my best
to stay away from my friends, i must avoid them, i just cannot have them near me, i don't want them
hearing all this, cause they are just gonna be like

"DA FUCK"?, why are you telling me all this stuff, it really just puts people off a good mood.
and better yet, avoid them, from asking me too many questions, I HATE QUESTIONS RIGHT NOW!
i already have too many questions to ask and answer myself! i've already got too many problems with me!
i don't want them to fucking build up and most of all, i don't wanna push any of my friends away.

but in special cases such as this one, i must avoid, i must do what i can by myself, i have to make my
own choice, in my own way, using my own knowledge. i know i am going to do something stupid, but
i will learn, i will learn from my mistake, i just hope this mistake doesn't risk my chances.

so.. as i was talking to Nikki about all this, i stumbled across  5 questions.. 5 questions that are
very relevant to my situation, and i must answer by myself, myself only.
they are

1. Who makes me feel more like its love?
2. Who can't i imagine my life without?
3. What are the consequences and think about them both, whether I take the chance or not?
4. Will i regret it?
5. Will they both be able to be in my life, after this decision?

these questions will continue to ring in my head, until i have answered them all. i hope when all is
said and done, i have the the right decision, and as my friends say
"If Its Not Fine Yet, It Is Not The End"
even though I'm sick of that line, seeing as it was said too many times to me.


--Dopey.Candy--